Clay's 15th birthday came and went like it does every year since I lost him. I thought of him all day. 15 wow he would probably be learning how to drive, for scary. He would love football, baseball and I suppose girls. I know I did not get to see him grow but in my head I can see him.
This year has been super hard on me. As you all know the man that took my angels away was released from prison. It has been a lot of first time he was out when I had anniversary's that I should not have to have, with him being released from prison.
Prison is not the punishment he deserves, and I really do not think that any amount of time would be enough time. He got released but Clay and Carl did not come back to life.
And now it seems like Lee has a life. This does not seem fair, this is something that I am having a very hard time dealing with. Part of his life is a engagement, this engagement is something that is confusing to me, something I am not understanding. The women is someone I was told was a cousin of his, to later find out that was a lie. This women knows everything she was in our life at the time, she even dated him after the death of the children, before he went to prison.
She calls him the love of her life.
She has other children and Lee has nieces and nephews the ages of my children that he took away. Now, I am wondering if the adults around these children know what he did. Understand that he has the potential to be a dangerous man.
